Musings...

I am learning new things these days that i can kinda do without...hehe...yeah...there are some things worth learning and some aren't. Well.. I cant decide to save my life!

Anyways...i m learning politics...without ever wanting to :(I am learning about people's weaknesses and how to take advantage of those weaknesses, however small or subtle, I am learning about massaging people's already inflated egos...I have seen so much hypocrisy in the last few months...i have almost stopped believing that people can be real.

I am learning all right! but will I use it? That needs to be seen. I will avoid it as far as humanely possible...will just watch from afar.
Oh I will definitely lose my temper. I am that way. What I will not be able to do is sugar-coat my words, paste a plastic smile on my face when in company and throw poisoned arrows at people when they arent around.
But I am wondering! I have always voiced my opinions...honestly, truthfully and without any extra trimmings. It hasn't helped...not yet...

So...To be or not to be (a hypocrite)? That is the question!

The reason for my reluctance is...well...that since i have started being true to myself, facing myself, my heart has been talking to me more and more frequently, excitedly, happily... (yeah just like Santiago's heart does in 'The Alchemist')

I think I will actually smile, from the heart (not a plastic one for sure), and let it all just pass me without touching me. Coz these poor souls don't know what they are doing... right? ;)

i guess i am better off being like me...coz i like it.
Hmmm....so my musing has atleast made me reach this decision...and i am smiling...that's good! :)