Saturday, January 15, 2011

Innocence - Lost and found!

Lately I have been going back to my childhood memories more & more often. What is making me do it? Its not as if the childhood was way too good or the present is way too bad.

We, as children, fresh into this world, with a fresh perspective of things around us, can see the complex subtleties around us with profound clarity, and accordingly mould our thinking, in terms of how we view people around us, and the world at large. We don't know what fate has in store for us and we don't care
either. We take each day as it comes, discovering new tidbits about ourselves and others each day, experimenting, speaking up without fear, trusting people we love without question. There's nothing to cloud the perspective, no influences that we encounter as adults, to distract . A spade is a spade is a spade. We are
at one with our instincts...until...

Until we come face to face with human nature...and start listening to our own heart with some doubt. We start giving weightage to what we see through others' perspective instead of following our own. We start being wary of people. People we think may hurt us. We start to distrust, we start to get manipulated and manipulate in return, we start acting tactful and we simply lose the simplicity. Lives become complicated, relations become sordid.

As adults, we can still do all the things we did as children. But we choose not to. We can still believe in things we believed as children. but we are afraid to. Because now, that innocence is lost.We hide behind reason. We console ourselves that whatever we did, there was something that made us do it. Yea sure...there's always a reason for hate, always a reason for a certain behavior.

Blame it on others, blame it on our own self. Blame, hatred, hurt are always there...like the air, always around us. We breathe them, we wallow in them, we live with them...

What will happen if we go back to that innocence? We might get hurt? Big deal! we are bound to get hurt some way or the other anyways!

So just follow your heart, trust your instincts and take responsibility for it and go ahead. Reclaim the lost innocence. Its not gonna change people around you. But it surely will change you. Go find peace within self and enjoy!

2 comments:

  1. I have been going through ur blog for sometime now and love what u write. You are so grounded in ur thinking and put it out in such a beautiful manner. Keep up the good work! :)

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  2. I started with your latest entry and now I am going through all your posts. It seems to me you are a good soul who trusted all the wrong people. But you know what? Best things come to people who don't lose their goodness even when they are surrounded by people who don't care :)

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